Monday, August 11, 2008

Would someone please tell my inner 2 year old to go away?

I have a confession about Saturday's post.  I was pretty snippy while I was putting it together.

Obi Wan-da wanted to help me when I was putting the squares together for a picture which was all well and good until she decided it would be much more fun to play checkers with them. However, I was on a mission.  I had a task to get done and Lord help anyone who gets between me and a completed task.

In hindsight it was ridiculous, but at the time I acted like all future productivity hinged on my taking pictures of these stupid squares.  Of course, the blanket is for her.  I can just see her 12 years from now (when the blanket is finally finished) twitching when she looks at it because she doesn't see the love behind it, but rather her crazy mother freaking out over some misplaced squares.  I'm so embarrassed.

And tired.  I'm tired of modeling the very behavior that I try teach my children not to do.  

At least God uses these moments to let me demonstrate another action that pleases Him, repentance.  I'm so thankful for children who are quick to forgive, but I don't want to abuse that.  So I'm going to keep asking the Lord to help with this area of my life.  It may take the rest of my days to get this mastered but I'm so thankful for this reassurance:

"And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue His work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns."  Philippians 1:6 (NLT version)

And now I'm going to go forth and try to be an adult today.


chewhi said...

my heart is just mush... I SO get this!

Tree Climbing Mom said...

I'm so glad it's not just me!

Tiffany said...

I am so right there with you. Controlling my temper and living with patience and peace is a daily prayer of mine. I fail way more than I would like but thankfully my kids are forgiving. I regularly ask them to pray for me.

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